Survelliance by Alezandrea Camis

Alezandrea Camis | Jan 27th, 2014 | a poem a day challenge, poetry | No Comments

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[tab id=1]Everyday is the same
Nothing out of routine
I do everything like a normal person,
but I can’t help feeling like someone’s watching me
That feeling hits me hard when I’m on the job
Doing what any father would kill his daughter for
I’m not hurting anyone,
Yet I can’t help but feel guilty
Guilty for what I’m doing
Guilty for making a living
Guilty for living MY life
I don’t know when or why these feelings started,
I just wish they’d go away
When I catch a glance at myself in a hotel mirror,
I no longer feel excited, but disgusted with myself
I hate it
I feel like I’ve shamed my parents, even though they’re no longer here.
Reality sets in, its been them all along.
I’m here, on Earth
making a name for myself
While they’re there
Looking down on me
Disgusted with me
EVERYDAY is the same
Nothing out of routine
I do everything like a normal person
They don’t want a daughter like everyone else does
They just want their child back
The one they would’ve been proud of
The one they loved so much
The one who never did a thing wrong,
Not the one constantly making mistakes
They want their baby back
The one the doctor handed them,
The little BOY the doctor handed them.[/tab]
[tab id=2]This poetress loves to write when time permits. She loves weird things that may come across in her poetry.[/tab]


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